Get to Know Yourself.

A couple of hours ago I had a topic in mind and half of the blog post already written in my mind but I fell asleep on the couch before I was able to even write one word.

I was looking for inspiration and decided that I could try to answer some questions.

I ended up finding an article on ProlificLiving and questions that made me think twice about what I think I knew and what I actually know about myself.

I won’t answer all of them and some will be re-written but I hope that these questions might help explain how I think and view things in general.

  1. What activity in your life lights you up with joy?
    I honestly have no specific activity in my life that lights me up with joy. These three are not exactly an activity but it is something that brighten up my life.
    Writing, especially if I can keep my mind focused, makes it possible for me to deal with emotions. It gives me a way of putting words on the things going on in my mind.
    Walking and taking pictures is something I haven’t done in a long time and I truly miss it. Spending hours outside taking pictures of the nature and not caring about people or what’s happening around me. I’m in my own little ‘happy bubble’.
    My Significant Other, the one I live with, the one I love, the one that makes me laugh no matter how bad I feel.
  2. What is something you always love doing, even when you are tired or rushed? Why?
    Listening to music. No matter if I’m tired, stressed, sad or happy music something I need daily. It calms my mind and makes me more relaxed.
  3. If a relationship or job makes you unhappy, do you choose to stay or leave?
    My rule of thumb is that if your current situation makes you unhappy and it’s not something temporarily where there is no way to fix it even after giving it a serious chance, staying will only make it worse.
  4. What do you believe is possible for you?
    I have never thought about it. To be honest, I focus too much on what I know I won’t be possible for me. Just the thought of this questions makes me frustrated because it reminds me of the fact that I have given up on so many things because I ‘knew’ I’d fail at if I tried. I believe it’s possible for me to look brighter on things. To accept the things I can’t do and focus on what I know I can do instead.
  5. What have you done in your life that you are most proud of?
    I honestly have nothing in my life that I can say I am truly proud of. Yes, I know I might look at this question in a negative way but it is the truth. Other than having a job, a significant other and a roof over my head. There’s not much.
  6. What is the thing that you are second most proud of?
    Being able to tell people who I am, the real me, how I feel. This might sound like nothing but I can’t be open around many.
  7. What kind of legacy do you want to leave behind?
    The legacy I want to leave behind is a stronger community. A place where people accept and respect each other regardless of gender, religion, who they love or their identity. A place to be yourself to the fullest.
  8. If you could have one single wish granted, what would it be?
    The cliche would be to say world peace but I won’t. I will have to say acceptance and respect regardless of religion, gender and identity.
  9. How comfortable are you with your own mortality?
    I know I am a mortal. I know I will die one day and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. Our body is not meant to live forever. Our hearts can’t beat forever. It’s a muscle and eventually that muscle will get tired and worn out along with our bodies.
  10. What is your highest core value?
    Respect, honesty, caring and loyalty .
  11. To your best knowledge, how do other people perceive you?
    Quiet and shy. Hopefully trustworthy, caring, loyal and humorous.
  12. How would you like others to perceive you?
    The same as the question above. Trustworthy, caring, loyal and humorous.
  13. How confident are you in your abilities to make decisions for yourself?
    I wish I was more confident. .
  14. What is your biggest self-limiting belief? 
    That I won’t be able to make a difference and that it’s better to avoid trying if the failure rate is too high.
  15. How is your relationship with money?
    My relationship with money is stressful. In today’s society money means almost everything. We work to earn and use it to pay rent/mortgage, bills and food.  I have no education that makes it easy for me to get my ‘dream’ job. Being able to live comfortable without worrying if I can survive until my next paycheck sounds like a paradise. Money don’t mean happiness but it sure makes it easier.
  16. How do you feel about growing old someday?
    Just a natural part of being human and mortal. I wouldn’t want to grow too old to the point where I’d need help with every little task.
  17. Do you believe your destiny is pre-determined or in your hands to shape however you wish?
    I believe that my destiny is a matter of the choices I make and how those choices will affect me later in life.

I didn’t answer all of those questions. Answering just 17 of these literally took all day.

I’m sorry for a boring blog post.